Thursday, September 18, 2008
Juju wrote Did I broke your heart? at 10:01:00 PM.
I didn't have the gut to post this in my blog. Asim might read it up and might end up hurting him.
So firstly, I would like to apologize to my dearest love (if you're reading this one) for posting this post. I just feel like sharing. (:
A friend, let name him as A, texted me on my MSN last night. Okay that was normal. Then I started to make thing 'lively' by saying something like... "Hey, me birthday aritu.. Tapi you nada greet," Guess how A responded? He wanted to call me, to make it up. But I rejected, and even said, "Never again, you can call me. I've made a promise to myself, not to hurt my love one,"
Why am I doing that? It is because, A never consider this relationship as friendship. Yeah we’re so close before, so close that it didn’t feel right. So I keep my distant away from him, to make this friendship sounded more like it. Truly saying, I’m sorry friend!
It happened so many times that I ignored him. In some situation, I have to go ‘appear offline’, just to make him go away. Again, I’m sorry. But really, I have too!
What drives me nut is that, he’s already in a relationship. A have a girlfriend, who could took care of him. I can’t understand why he is doing it to me. Say… Having fun? NOT! He can have fun with his partner jua. Ergh!
I’m very glad that I’ve changed. I am no longer who I am few years back. Before I’m with Asim, that is.
And if I am to compare my life now with that of few years back, with confidence, I’m happier now. Indeed, with no regret at all.
It’s just the matter of time isn’t it?
The conclusion… is that… Yes, I’m taking this relationship seriously. I don’t care how much it hurts, because I believe, there will never be an end… for our love. (:
I’m sorry panjang cerita ku. Puas hatiku! LOL! Eh, macam essay. :D
Night readers!
Posted by: Fie. (: