Monday, January 26, 2009 Sha Fatin wrote My love story.... not love, crush! at 9:40:00 PM.

David Archuleta - Crush.mp3 -

It's time to update this blog. Hai again... I'm back. Hehehehe. See the title? Yes, let's talk about something. My inner feelings... :p

Hmm... I don't think Fie tau the guy that I've been talking about, do ya? If tau, inda papa lah, about to tell you two again and again lah. Hehehehe... And since it's inappropriate to tell this story arah my own blog, so I decided to hantam here saja. More, batah inda ber update. Okay, that should be the best reason why. Hehehehe.

Last Sunday, I went to Miri with my family and a friend that I forced her to come along with me. Hahahaha, nada wah. I'm dragging her along, that's why. One thing in my mind for sure... I wanna see him again. I haven't met him for this a couple of weeks so yeah, it's common for us to miss someone terribly even for 2 or 3 days only (I'm referring to both of you, hehehehehe... kana kamu :p) and I'm not an exceptional. Hahahaha... Aku pun kana kali ah.

Yes, I miss how to be loved and loving somebody. And this kind of feeling strikes me again and again everytime I think about him. Hahahaha... silly, but that's the fact. Don't laugh.

So I went to Starbucks Coffee for emm... lunch? Yes, we went there masa afternoon, so considered that as our lunch meal tah tu di Starbucks Coffee ahh. And I used to say, I can't drink coffee or even smell its aroma, but somehow when I first stepped into the cafe, I like the smell especially when there's a cute and handsome young barista that I saw the first time I came there. Hehehehe... Oh me. Whatever.


Okay, that guy I introduce to both of you as Show Luo Junior (nama banar tapi eksen me, hehehehe.). Very good-looking guy - tall (aku meliat ia pun tepaksa melangoi), fair skin, mua iras-iras super senior kita dulu intake 2004/2005 Flex (Fie, still remember?) but he looked so much like Show Luo (believe me... especially when he smiled at me for the first time we flirt with each other, LOL). And that's the reason why I set Show Luo's picture as my laptop background. Reminds me of him. Hehehehehe.

Okay, I'm slowly ter-dragged out from the true story. Hahahaha... Sorry.

For the second time... unfortunately, ia inda kraja masa tu. Here's one thing. Fie, don't be surprised what did I just do. I dared to asked his friend, Alex (bukan sir Physics ah) about him. I first asked "...mana Show Luo Junior?". Then, his friend said "...oh, he'll be working tonight..." I was like, you-know-what-you-will-do. Frustrated, disappointed. Iatah we just sat there and trying to think bloody hard what to do. Did we? No I don't think so, just melayan perasaan. Yeah, that's what I thought.

Then again, before heading back to the hotel (oh by the way, we're not staying overnight di hotel, just day use saja tu) I went to Starbucks Coffee to buy dad's Americano. In my thought, I was hoping that dad would let me go again to Starbucks tonight since I'm craving to see him in person again. Hahahaha...

I knew that he'll work that night because si Alex said so. Here's our conversation:

Me - hello again, Alex.
Alex - hai again. May I help you?
Me - emm, one Americano for me please.
Alex - oh, Americano is a black coffee.
Me - yes... one please.
Alex - one Americano? Okay, regular or small or large size? (tunjukkan cawan regular and small size)
Me - regular one will do.
Alex - Okay, coming right up. RM6.85 please.
Me - (bagi duit)
Alex - here's the change, RM3.15. Wait for a while please, thank you.
Me - okay... (balik semula ke counter) emmm, Alex?
Alex - yes?
Me - I'm sorry for bothering you again. Was wondering... err...
Alex - (sengih-sengih) Show Lou Junior?
Me - (mesmerized) amm... yeah, about him.
Alex - yes? emm... (buat tangan macam calling tu)
Me - what time his shift tu start?
Alex - emmm... six.
Me - ohh...
Alex - It's like 3 more hours to go. You don't wanna wait for him?
Me - ahh, it's okay then. I'll be heading home soon anyway. Err... (whispering) can I ask you a favour?
Alex - sure, anything.
Me - but this is confidential though.
Alex - (liat kiri kanan, awu catu he did before we continued whispering, hahaha...) okay.
Me - can you give this notes to him?
Alex - emm... okay, sure. (tarus masuk dalam pocket seluarnya)
Me - I'm counting on you, Alex. Thanks.
Alex - no problem. (smile)

Then tarus kami keluar eyh. Ya Rabbi, beraninya aku kan buat catu. Eii, what happened to me? Hahahaha... Awu, seriously you wanna know what I wrote on the note? My nickname and e-mail. Heheehe... Lului oh. Tapi I hope he remembered me lah because one of his friends named Azriez (don't be mistaken with Aizril ahhh, almost the same isn't it?), I think he remembered me so well that when I walked inside the cafe, he kept on staring at me from top to toe. Macam baru kejumpaan bini-bini usulnya. Banar... Bebanar lah he stared at me sampai aku pun felt uncomfortable tarus. Hahahaha... Do I look so beautiful that he had to stop and kept on staring at me without his eyes blinked? My, my...

Iatah now, I'm hoping for a miracle. Not only an excellent A level result, but also an excellent friendship with Show Luo Junior or perhaps, a relationship?

I dunno ahh, I think I'm a failure when it comes to love. You see, number one issue, I used to have a boyfriend but he dumped me by having another affair with another girl from UK (I bet she's a scholar kali). Number two issue, I love my ex-boyfriend you-know-who, but I don't know why he turned out not to love me again for the past few months ago. I think it's my mistake not to appreciate him and understand the 'true' him. Blame me for that. But we're friends, good friends... That's what matter anyway.

Anyhow, I'm looking forward for it. I won't give up until I'm abso-fucking-lutely exhausted chasing here and there and in the end, there's NONE for me to cherish the sweetest moment I could ever imagine. But I shall not give too much hope on this, because anything can happen with just a blink of an eye. Furthermore, I knew him just by looking at his appearance and the way we secretly stared each other the first time we met. Still, there's more I need to know about him.



p/s: 6pm and I'm still at Miri City, *sigh*