Saturday, September 20, 2008 Juju wrote Rindu A square H.............................. at 9:11:00 PM.

Courtesy of Sha the Glass Rain blog:





18th September:
I woke up late. So, I didn't go to the graveyard with my family & relatives. Haihh, kinda frustrated as I made a promise dengan my lovely cousin, Yahya that I WILL come kesana. Bui, sorry, inda ku telajau. Kelewatan gue dong~

Anyway, sementaranya menanti my parents balik rumah kan, I took some time menangis dalam bilik. Yeah, I know. He's going to UK bah, so I'm a bit emotional lah. Hahaha... I wanna call him, but I'm afraid that bila call ia, Sha menangis memanjang. He online plang that morning, salah-salah jua eyh kan menagur, karang menangis lagi... More, he wrote a farewell nick bah, makin ku menangis. Eyh, emo sangat Sha kemarin tu. Whatever~

I need strength... I need strength...

Later, afternoon nya, Sha bersiap-siaplah kan jalan. Sambil tu I MSN-ing with him... Well, mengukir kenangan terakhir nah. Woseh~ jiwang lagi. Hahaha... And pelik aku ni, why I chose all-white clothings ni kan? Macam kan kawin saja nah. Hahaha.... Eishh~ Kidding!

Went to the airport with GFF Juju and Babu Sinah. Thanks mum, bersusah payah she tried to runding Babu Sinah lagi. Well, she wanna meet him jua bah arah airport tu. Atu yang Sha tekajut bila she said "...mama pun kan liat ia jua before ia belayar..." Eerrk~ butterflies in my stomach tarus. Hahaha...

Met Bujoy there. Hey, thanks for keeping his gift tu aaa... At first tu, I thought that I won't come bah masa he depart ni nanti, but then, I came, so thank you anyway. Inda dibaca aaa isinya. Jangan macam-macam, khas untuk him saja toh. Hehehe...

Went there dengan hati yang kabak-kabak. You know, like all my systems ni shutting down bila ternampak his family. Buat selamba plang but Tuhan saja yang tahu perasaanku masa tu. Hehehe...

I approached him dulu, salam and talk punya talk, my mum came later on. And I didn't know about that 'white envelope' or whatever you call it. I'm not surprised though as my mum pun ada bagi abang that envelope jua. Hehehe... Then, off mama went to somewhere. Sampat lagi Sha betanya tu, "...handsome?..." Astee~ Hehehe!

Kenal-kenal his parents jua. I like them, to be honest bui. Mama macam kenal her mom and so his mum jua. Then, cerita-cerita dengan his mum, well like hidup masa kini. Cheh~ Hehehe... I'm good with her, get along together. Woseh~ Apa tu ah? *wink

Oh yeah, I met Silah and Waley there. I think durang kan ngantar their cousin ke UK as well. Wait, there's more. We met Jannah. She went there to meet Dorren yang kan belayar to UK jua. Hmmm... Didn't see Yuhana though. Silah plang cakap that Yuhana's here jua ngantar her cousin. And I met senior Nazmi and his girlfriend. Hey long time no see... And wow~ durang masih stay together bui. Jealous Sha eyh. Hahaha...

Unfortunately, I forgot to take their photos because sibuk meliat & temani this person ni memunggah-munggah his luggages. Sorry Mr. Charles... Iatah nah, kemaruk pakah Sha masa tu. Hahaha!

Sampat jua meng-candid him neh... See these:



Talking about that coat tu kan, ehh... I like. Ada fur inside... Very thick lah yang pastinya and heavy. I think it's heavier than my coat kali. Psst~ I tell you something lah aaa... Since I missed him badly, eseh, ada lagi tu... I hugged his coat. My God, what am I saying? Gila kali hug coat orang, baik hug orangnya tarus nah. Astee~ LOL

Oh cannot... puasa, puasa.... :p


And I took 2 photos with him. Sampat lagi tu... Hey, kenangan terakhir. I don't wanna miss any chances kali a. After he ke UK ni, it might be difficult for me to see him again macam susahnya Sha kan jumpa abang. Wait, I know, SKYPING~ Majal skyping nya aaa... Hahaha!

Oh yeah, I met Aizat and the rest of the Zusketeers, you know, his friends yang all with Z thing. Hehehe... That's Zusketeers. I only knew Aizat and Azim though. Hahaha... I should read his blog lagi, re-call their names. :p

Okay, out kajap... People always said to me, "...Sha, next year you go to Liverpool lah, ikut ia...". Hmmm, should I??? I don't know a, still thinking about it, but I aimed arah local university plang. UK might be great jua, but...................oh well, all I can say is "...We'll see, insyaALLAH..." Can't promise anyway because life can be so unpredictable.

Back to the story again:


Sha cuba kawal emosi tu bila I saw he hugged his grandfather. His grandfather kan menangis dah tu, so Sha cuba tahan tu by holding Juju's hand. Then, he hugged his parents and siblings... Kan keluar dah, tapi Sha tahan masih. I held Juju's hand tightly tu. Berabis... Hahaha... Sorry Ju if kesakitan.

Masa we salam tu, I stared at him. Oh, I wish dapat stop him bah. Like, macam ages inda pernah jumpa, rindu pun membuak-buak. Wait, rindu? Yeah, I think so... Gaaahhh~ macam Sha kan cakap dah tu "...buleh jangan pergi ka?" but I know there's no turning back. Eyh, maunya Sha bought him another luggage kali, Sha masuk sana. Huehuehue...

And his father sampat lagi beibun arah kami tu. Not sure apa he said masa di airport, I only saw him sengih-sengih liat kami bersalaman, until si kambang Bujoy told me apa ia cakap. Gosh~ malu ku eyh!!! I wanna slam my face ni arah pillow and SCREAM OUT LOUD! *blushed

Okay, enough said......................................................

Ngam masanya masuk arah detector thingy tu, sungkai... So perabut lah. My gift atupun sikit lagi tinggal. Luckily he grabbed that gift dah and he masuk tarus and sungkai kajap before he kan berlepas. My sungkai ni only chocolate (his mum bagi arah kami) and sweets. Hehehe, merasa jua tu mau meliat ia berlepas in front of my eyes.

So before he masuk, he waved his last goodbye to us. And his family masa tu balik but Sha, Juju & Bujoy setia ni menanti ia masuk ke balai berlepas. He meliat-liat plang lagi tu, see whether his family masih ada sana. *durang diblakang dah, sungkai blakang advertisement TV I think Ngam jua masa tu Sha toleh lagi bah, ehh ada panya ia lagi. So I waved him another goodbye. Surprisingly, emmm, I didn't expect that 'special' gift plang dari jauh..... Eeee~ don't wanna talk about it. Hahahaha.... I gave him that 'gift' jua and a 'heart' shape. Boink~ Hehe!


Disebabkan alum puas, I watched him lagi berlepas dengan airplane sekali. We went upstairs and paling upstairs sekali. There, I received his message pasal that gift tu and sorry pasal he rushing masa tu. So I called him instead of messaging. Gosh~ I started to miss him already. Hahaha... We just talk and hati ni macam makin payah kan lepaskan ia bah. Ishhh~ kenapalah makin bersemarak ani nah? Hohoho...


Pity Juju & Bujoy menanti. Sorry you guys.


I watched the airplane tu sampainya selamat berangkat meninggalkan tanah air tercinta. So goodbye 'cute'. See you next year... Farewell.


Well, I felt so guilty arah durang Bujoy & Juju, so I decided to belanja them arah Jolibee. Took a photo with Bujoy before we 'go our own way'... So thank you Bujoy sudi temani ke atas tadi and dengan Juju, we went to the Mall, K-Boxing!

I didn't cry though. And Juju was proud of me. Thanks... Instead, I found myself in this beautiful world yang penuh dengan kasih sayang. Okay, jangan muak membaca this one, hehehe... I don't know aaa, Sha sayang ia plang masih, sisa 'love' tu masih ada bah and I hope he feel the same way like I do jua aaa... :p With him, I feel like flying. But, I don't know if I'm ready to fall in love again.

I think I still love him...
Tapi ia merasa jua ka perasaan ni?
Hmmmm............................

I think this could be the most meaningful farewell ever for me...

Assalamualaikum and toodles.